I am stripped of all but pride

...Dear lord. Why am I thinking of wanting to start an Operation: Mindcrime-themed RP?

...would anyone even be interested in joining shit like that?

ENOUGH FUCKING TWILIGHT RPGS. I'M GOING TO START THROTTLING PEOPLE SOON.

That is all. Now, it's off to Orchestra. Goddamn Orchestra.

Posted to areyougame (where I got the prompt from) and to my writing shit.

Title: A Slight Disturbance
Rating: PG at worst
Warnings: References to a kiss, which is not actually shown.
Word count: 368
Prompt: Magna Carta, Justina/Reith: kissing - innocent enough to make a priestess feel dirty
Summary: Justina is frustrated by Reith kissing her and tries to get her to stop.
A/N: This is late, I know. At first I thought it was due on 23, then 24, then, on the 26th, my brain apparently died before I got to posting it. So, six and a half hours late. D: Also, it's HORRIBLE and SHORT. I have to re-play this game sometime soon. *just blames everything on failbrain*

Also, *kicks computer for checking the "disable auto-formatting" box forcing me to make this edit DX*

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Good lord, I love my parents.

...and I'm going insane.

Also, I started listening to Nine Inch Nails. I don't know if that means anything to anyone, but okay. I think I'll be able to, with ease, finish my prompt for Friday. I have no school Friday. So... that's not too bad.

I hate depression. Depression sucks. It sucks horribly and I wish I didn't get so damn depressed so often. It's even worse since I never feel like I can talk to anyone about it. ...Damn it D:

So, to lighten up this post, I'm reposting this:



eta: Yes, I know the line is "Du bist im Labyrinth" -- but that's how I misheard it. So.

I have five journals to deactivate when I get home (largely since I'm no longer a part of the RPs they're for and I don't want the memories nor the e-mail notifications). I also have a Bender app to finish. Then novel work. Then fuckin' orchestra. Then anime club.

So, good god I have a lot of random crap to do that, largely, is not really vital to anything. Why do I always do this to myself?

I mean, I didn't know I got that bored that easily.

I'm feeling a little better now. Good god, I've been emoing a lot lately. Funny it stopped after binging on The Cure. I thought that would have made it worse.

I just hope I can remember to write for my areyougame prompt. I'm sure I'll remember, but asdf that fucking novel may yet get in the way!

Good god I feel crappy right now. I really don't want to go home, but I also don't want to stay here in school.

I really don't want to deal with my mother, either.

...god damn it.

Blah. I really do hate everything.

But that's a story for another time. So far, the novel is going well. I'm up to about the beginning of the mid-part of chapter 5, nearing 19 pages so far, giving each chapter an average length of 4 pages. That's in Word with margins of about .7 in., I think, so, when sized down for a book, that'd probably give about eight to ten pages each so far. Chapter 5 is nowhere near done, because there's a lot of information in it.

Why am I babbling about this? Whatever. This is pretty much my lone happiness at the moment. School, so far, blows this year. I really don't like the cello -- and my cello teacher is an arse, in my opinion. In fact, most of my teachers suck. ...And I have orchestra in about twenty minutes. They won't let me change out of this class just 'cause I hate it... even though that's pretty much why I switched out of marine biology, creative writing, and physics (though that was 'cause I didn't see the need to take a second course of physics). I want to go back into Latin, but it's at the same time as my database class, which is all online, yet they can't let me take it during like... my lunch, or some shit.

Tomorrow, too, will suck. I will have an open block at the beginning of the day for a hundred minutes. Then a lunch hour, then orchestra. Then, I will have band, and logic and hardware, finally debate. Debate is cool. However, tomorrow, there will be a sub. Subs are incompetent. That, or they're assholes.

After that, I have anime club. The leader of anime club used to be cooler, but she is now a total bitch. She told me to shut down my computer, claiming it was a distraction. It is nigh noiseless. The glow cannot be seen from where she sits -- at the front. I sit all the way at the back, not bothering anyone. The glow shines on the back wall. Does not go toward the front at all. The only way she could see it is if she turns to look. In which case, she is looking in the complete opposite direction from the video screen in the first place and should fuck off.

Such abuse is un-fucking-necessary. So what if I work and watch anime at the same time? It's not like I'm doing important work that my future may depend on. It's just boring little shit. And sure, maybe I shouldn't do that, since that's not what the club is about, but it does also help me from having to carry on any conversations with people in the club. I don't like interacting most of the time.

I don't think I'm that far out of line, am I?

Fuck. Stock market just plummeted an ass-load.

I'm really depressed. For other reasons, though. This just made it worse.

Fuck. I hate everything.

I saw people reading Twilight books in school earlier today. I feel pretty fucking terrible to say that I almost went out of my way to aggrevate this person. But, I withheld the urges. Fortunately.

P.S. Anyone out there know where I could get hold of a yield-sign ring? I've tried eBay, jack shit.

And that's all I gotta say.

I have to reply to some things on LJ later when I get home. Ignore this. This is just a reference. See, I can't access LJ at school, but I can access IJ.

How fucked up is that?

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